I keep repeating Cal's words from Titanic. "Tonight I have lost something very dear to me." I also keep thinking of our dear Miss Bradshaw when she lost her beloved "Carrie" necklace.
I lost my ring. My favorite ring. The ring I have worn on my finger nearly every day of my life for the past 10 years. A ring that has endured even longer than either of my two wedding rings.
I know how much I loved this ring by how often I was photographed wearing it. It was in every face-holding selfie I ever took. Even my coworkers who never notice anything noticed it's absence.
The logical part of my brain knows it's stupid to care about a thing, an object. Because any logic or thing can be lost. In a sense, any object or "thing" can be replaced. But can it really? Not the trip or place where it was purchased. Not the feeling surrounding that trip and purchase. And not the feeling of the ring itself. It was my talisman. My totem. And now it's gone.
Addendum: My ring was amazingly recovered by one of my favorite people. She is bent and sad but still malleable......a lot like me. Sending out enduring love to my dear friend who sought her out.



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