Even though I would not consider myself religious or even spiritual, I keep this in my bag and carry it with me daily. That explains the creases. Written on the back are thoughts, dreams, hopes, wishes.....or I suppose, we can call them prayers. I used to think on these things and hope for them to come true. Many of them have. I carry them with me to remember.
A friend once told me that for a non-religious person, I talked about karma a lot. It's true. I often think about karma, ideas of fate, retribution, conscience, consquences and human existence in general. I often wonder if I'm doing or have done the "right thing". I wonder if I've made apologies or amends to bad choices. I wonder if I've taken the right path. I wonder if I've kept my integrity intact. Sometimes yes, sometimes no.
I once confessed a boatload of bad deeds to a very strong and very intelligent feminist in my life. I asked her if I was a moral person. Her response was basically "as moral as you can be as a woman living in the patriarchy". Heh. Is that my Get Out of Jail Free card?
At any rate, this little piece of paper makes me feel better. It grounds me. And maybe it's taking me toward a better place of mental and physical care for myself. Maybe that will be the next "prayer" I write on the back.
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